be careful you fool, there are certain rules even for a fellow like you - Regina Spektor

Incubus is coming to Singapore and I CAN'T WATCH!!!!
Not that I am a fan of incubus lah but when such good quality bands come to Singapore, I thought it's amazing that they step their feet here.
Not that I can't watch but I don't think I would be crazy enough to spend money for concert unless....it's a treat. =p
When I first heard the meaning of incubus explained by the DJ, I was like "ooooohhh''.
Cool one.

Happy Leap month!
29th Feb 2008, you gotta wait another 4 years to spend another time like now.
This year, the leap day sits nicely on a Friday.It doesn't signify anything special but I like it.
Friday is orgasmic, almost holy!
Monday to Friday's before KO hours are just such a drag!
This month seems so draggy and whatever occasions there were in this month seem so blardy long ago but it IS still within the month!

I'm gonna catch The Leap Years tomorrow! I heard some said it made them cry like shite?
I dunno what makes me wanna watch this movie. I wasn't even interested when I heard of it but when I saw the trailer, the 'OK' part. It romantified me so much that I decided to watch.

I was kinda pissed with Jason for not msging for close to 2 days in a row. (that was yesterday & a good whole working Friday) I knew he was busy but I thought this is not a good excuse. A good night,good morning or lunch message will do too.

Till in the midst of this early morning when I woke inbetween of sleep, I thought of this.

He got me this last Saturday when he met me. (The ones Fyn gave was sooo much more cuter!) I didn't think it's exactly useful nor did I thank him. Still I appreciate this thought and the gesture remains so I decided not to be angry.
See!Gals appreciate your small acts and are NOT narrow minded. We are cos' you are stupid and insensitive!
So I told him the 'credit' of this keychain is used up.

Tired le. Hope for a beautiful me, beautiful day, beautiful movie, beautiful him tomorrow.

Happy 29th February 2008, people.

Love you.

I say maybe, you're gonna be the one who saves me. And afterall, you're my wonder wall - Oasis

Sometimes I just like British rock bands. Maybe it's their accent that makes English so right damn cute!But I don't fancy too thick an accent, especially what it sounds like from TV like...football telecast whatever whatchamacallit.

If you watched Jumper, you probably would pay more attention to the English Jumper than Hayden Christensen.
Well, I did. I can't help it! The way how English sounds is so damn much cuter than what came out from H.Christensen's mouth.

Finally it's gonna be Friday tomorrow but I am gonna be having one damn packed one.
Just pray nothing goes wrong ok?

Like Fyn said, may good luck be sprinkled on you.
(Nice people always have nice words, unlike me. Well...-shrugs-)
Cya tomorrow babe, I miss you!!!!

And you, I miss too.
You,who read,who bother to.

Lets talk about dreams & life being short. Oh well..,-Shrugs-

Was reading Von's blog and this topic came to mind.
Dreams..It's really hard to have dreams to be achieve for average people like you & me.
Dreams seem to be only achievable for people who are financially well to do but I know it's not true lah. There are so many good examples out there and I know the main problem is myself.

When you talk about 'dreams' while you were young, you tend to link it to ambition.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?" A question so simple & often prompted when you were in primary school will lead you to believe that a dream is like what you want to be when you grow up.

A teacher, a lawyer, a doctor, a singer,an actor... whatever,whichever you had written was your dream.
There are really many people who achieved those young dreams and many deviated.

Many of us struggled in between in leading a life that is so far from your dream and trying (very hard) to live a life that's fulfilling at least.
Let's just face the truth. It IS very easy to fall back to the mundane nonsenses of life.
Work especially kills it off. Just today, I had another BAD day at work. I hate it how luck falls short so fast & the good hardly stays more than a week.
I am crossing my fingers so damn hard that tomorrow and Friday would be kinder to me.

So what is life is short? Life is short doesn't mean that you will get to choose what you wanna do. Not all of us at least.I guess most of us may not have such privilege.

I know we live only this once (Not taking about maybe there's life afterwhich. You won't get to remember either.) and that notion is pretty scary still.
I have not live enough to experience what I want to and I do not know if I would have the chance to taste what I desired.
But living only this once & life as short as it may be, still doesn't permit me to have the thought of doing whatever damn things I dream of.

Could I choose to quit my damn job & live every artless moment?
Could I choose to squander every damn cents I have & cover every single inch of the map?
Could I choose to ignore whatever ties I have here & reside in an unknown beautiful island, seeking my solace & romance?

If I have dreams, I would want not to be anyone. I lied in my composition, in my resume, to the employers, to my relatives even.
I don't want to be a teacher when I grow up.
I don't want to be an air stewardess when I grow up.
I don't care about a fucking leading edge career & I never like HR.
I just don't have a dream that is an ambition since young. While you can wag my fingers telling me I am a wasted soul, I tell you I don't give a fuck about you cos' this is me and I don't change.

I have a wanderer soul within. Free spirited?I dunno.
If there is one thing I would do, I would love to travel around (not taking money into a realistic consideration. The keyword here is IF.) leaving a footprint all over.

If you have a dream, might as well make it big.

I know that is not so damn unachievable but I have my limits.
My youth, my family(my parents would never consent), the money (Being a so not ambitious person, how would big money ever falls?) and alot.

Thus I live by a day by another. I am content with daily happiness acheived, be it a good date with Jason, a good dinner with friends or some solitude acheived.
I am not those that map out life step by step, point by point & hell yes, I know this is unhealthy.

Sigh..One cant be perfect, can we?
Sometimes I yearn for someone who will be the opposite of me so it balances out & perhaps the dream would be acheived...partially?
Yet sometimes I long for someone who is just like me so we will agree with each other & make the happiness of each well spent day doubles.

That someone wont be the same person, unfortunately.

Life..can't be perfect too, can it?

One more day of BHD!

I would seriously bang myself!
BHD is Bad Hair Day!

I kinda miss my short hair and I now hate it cos' it's not growing long!
Wonder how do people grow their hair so fast?

My heart is crippled by the vien that I keep on closing - Leona Lewis

(That's why )I keep bleeding in love, keep keep bleeding in love.
This is such a catchy song though I would hate to keep bleeding in love.But again, when have I not?

Last entry Jason told me men are visually stimulated creatures.
Right.
Just funny how topics came linking back to me. I was randomly flipping though Life and there's this short column by Sandra Leong under girltalk.

-When looks are a weighty issue.
While personality counts, looks are very important to men. It's the women who don't make such an issue of it.

I shall not go on quoting the whole entry but again I guess men are such stupid superficial creatures.
One part just explained the whole deal.

They (Sandra's guy friends) answered that is a man no longer finds his
woman physically attractive - whether it's because she's piled on the pounds or
grown warts 0 the relationship is most likely a goner, even if nothing else has
changed.

"It's like having a pebble in your shoe,"said one. "It doesn't kill you but
it bugs you like hell. Personality counts but looks can't be discounted."

I guess that would more or less close this issue.
I think that is why women can't afford to lose their attractiveness. That would prompt men to stray away to another beautiful woman out there.But the sad thing is women are more prone to lose their physical attractiveness given what the society, nature and all other micro,macro factors are expecting outta them.
It's not that fucking fair, isn't it?

I dunno.
I just pray hard that the man that I am eventually gonna be with, whoever that lucky bastard might be (lol), would not be classified as the norm.
He can be attracted to me first cos' he thinks that I am pretty and honestly I don't see what is so bad about that. That is like a real compliment,y'know.
But I hope he will cont'd to be attracted to me for the rest of his life no matter how fat,ugly I would eventually deteriorate to be.

Love,
Your future to be, you call me your one & only - Ling.

Men are visually stimulated animals - Jason WONG

I have to emphasize the WONG cos' that is quoted from yours truely boyfriend - Mr Jason Wong.

I was asking him if he was attracted to me then cos' he thought I was pretty? (SW would be laughing so hard by now that his jaws would drop from the 18th floor to basement 3.)
He quoted me the above sentence and I retorted that I wasn't even pretty then? (Not that I am pretty now lah but I'm prettier than before ba??)
-Silence-
No more message.
TMD. -_-*

Men are visually stimulated animals? If that's the case, those plain plain or rather not pretty ones bu shi heng ke lian?
Probably the same goes for ladies too but on a whole, I still think ladies would grow to appreciate the whole package.

I do not deny I am superficial at certain points but sometimes I think a guy,too good looking is really nothing but a piece of fucking cretin?
(For example...Edi-sOn C-hEN. I never like his face from the start. Super make-you-wanna-give-a-slap face.)

So ladies, you may like to ask your boyfriend a rather dangerous question.

"Were you attracted to me first because of my pretty looks?"

And ponder over it.

Lol.

Lets be just friends. =)

Maybe I didnt like you as much as I think.
Or maybe I have to make myself accept that.And that is not a bad thing afterall.
I guess I just need time & a clear state of mind.Not my heart to mess it up for me.


Short weekend, short weekend!!!
How does the days pass by so slowly & the weeks so fast?


Some jokers pasted this all over. Wtf.

'My lovely Samsoon' is showing at Cha U, Sunday 2pm -4pm!I just love that show.
I love how San Shun's attitude towards life, love & herself.
I like her so much that I wish I could bake too.

Some pics from yesterday.
I guess not much to blog these days.
Pictures make me happy.
Some memores, not.
Jason can.
I can't.
Some songs will rub it it.
Doodling won't.

I guess I'm more or less ready.
Let's just be friends.

Not you, Jason.
Jason indeed feel like a very good friend,a buddy infact sometimes.One that will be there for you unconditionally. So much so that it would be a shame not to have him as a boyfriend & more.
I like the warmth he gives, I like the support he gives, I like the love he gives.

A relationship with him is more than words.

Anyhow..pictures, pictures.
I gonna hate Monday! Wait...I already did.

At GWC. Before watching Jumper.
To win the award, you gotta lift your head up high like him.

I know Vonx showed this pic before but its cute lah.

Aint it a colourful world @ Ben & Jerry's?

Azabu Sabo has very nice ramen!!Go try!!

Hamtaro went wrong.

Hugs!

Doodles update

(if you know how the original photo of this pic looks like, you would faint. How the hell did I managed to draw a poor old indian fella to a young,emo looking one? Wtf.)







This is very last one I drew. It is supposed to be(if you can't tell) a gal holding to a piece of broken heart, looking down.
The background was supposed to be all fallen leaves but I lazy to draw all.


Guess this doodle business gonna be prolong till I find some peace from within.

And help! I can't stop listening to 李香兰.

"Being love deeply gives you strength, loving deeply gives you courage." - Lao Zi

Somehow I couldn't agree with the latter.
I almost goes,"Yeah right" when I saw this aphorism while withdrawing money.
Come to think of it, I still think 'yeah right.."

You shi huo...Wo zhen de heng tao yan ni. Dan shi wo geng tao yan wo zi ji.
Tao yan zi ji wei she me na me de sha.
Cheng tian shuo ni shi da sha gua, wo xiang wo shuo de shi zi ji.
Wo...zhen de..ren wei, mei you bi yao zai jian le.
yi wang suo you de 'cheng nuo', jiu rang ta liu zai zuo wang ba.
Wo zhen de hao...Tao yan.

回头也是梦,仍似被动 - 张学友

I fnally found this song.
李香兰.
I last heard it on the TV set at Parkway Giant, I think. Zhang Xue You sang this live (playing from DVD) and I fell in love with the impact of the emotions of this song, his voice, the melody and everything.
I didn't know the name of the song but never forget about this song.
Just heard it by sheer chance on Lynn's friendster and FINALLY, I have it.
If you have not heard it before, go (shhh!) download it.I personally preferred the Live version, despite the fans' claps & cheers.

Had a gr8 time with friends. (lazy to name all the names lah)
But a Tuesday gathering made the week looks longer.

Argh..cant blog le. Too absorbed by the song...

月色被打捞起,晕开了结局 - 周杰伦

My first purple rose. Courtesy of Melissa, from her cousin's wedding. It was dying till I revived it with water.

Monday.

My colleague gave birth to a baby boy.
"Super pain. I swear this is the last one."
Um..Why must giving birth be worse than your menses?I mean, why must women be the one who bear that pain while men have that pleasure?

11.11.
Why did you remind me? Was it outta sheer graditute cos' I got you something you want so you remember me as a great friend and that was our promise?
Or maybe it was just another trick from someone up there?Always have to play me out like that?
I have to admit that I was indeed very...surprised & that few split seconds of pure joy. But...ButI have nothing to look forward anymore.
Thank you for at least one..11.11 for me.

Tomorrow meeting with my fav poly faces!
Gives me something to look forward.
=)

Life...is living.

My heart is drenched in wine - Norah Jones

This photo is so like the one featured on Von's blog. Sunday, we are both emo-ing in (different) cafe with sweet.

How's Sunday?I thought I did something good today.
I lucky picked a 32" Samsung LCD TV for Fyn with her lucky coupon. Ha,ha.
It was somewhat embarassing having to face camera. Thank God, I did make-up before I left the house.
"So how do you feel???" asked the emcee.
"Um....Excited??(Deadpan)"
What am I supposed to feel?I was still like in half daze when the whole thing happened.
Anyway~Congrats,gal!

I love Starbucks @ Central. Though I am not an avid fan of coffee but still who can resists settings like this? Not me, when it is weekend.

Went to watch CJ7 on Saturday? I also want a 七仔!! So CUTE!
I actually CRIED when Stephen Chow died! What the heck?!
I just can't stand it when plots goes whereby parents died & the yound child is left to him/herself.
Though this is a happy movie & I sure know Stephen Chow would be brought back to life by 七仔 (so typical a plot)but still my tears kept dripping especially when the gal(Or maybe that son) kept crying and told the teacher when he is tired & wants to sleep, thinking everything would be back to normal when he awakes.

Rem' that Batman begins movie? I teared too when the parents of Bruce was killed.
What the...

This Loch Ness looks cute too. But watching it...um..maybe if there's nothing good to do.

Some photos taken during Saturday.


From a magazine cover. Just love the floral arrangements. A moment like that...I guess every gal would be looking forward to it. Me? Um...I dunno about that.


Some very sweet looking bears just displayed outside the gift shop facing Singtel @ Taka. Easy to miss it in our daily walk.

Don't know if you still rem' that is one time I looked at you before I took this picture. I was thinking..."Neng gou geng ni yi qi zhe yang chi dong xi zhen shi xin fu...."I was truly thankful to you...Really. = )

Anyhow..Sickening Monday is here again.
This weekend seems a lil' too short for me.

I don't know why I didn't come~~ (Cos' I have to leave...)

Wonderful February

Probably you who read my blog, say "Yeah right!"
Before you realised it, it is already beyond Mid-Feb 2-0-0-8. Where has the time hide to?On the faces, I guess.
You just can't hide how old you look despite how much your heart & mind determine otherwise.

When is the last time you see this O'School waffles!! Man, those primary school days...That belong to the 80s generation!

I can't feel that I am 24 this year. A part of me still thinks I am like 18,19,20. But when I realised how childish those stupid gals who like acting cute & innocent out there, I can't help but to scoff.

Work has been quite alright and luck is a cycle here. I hate those bleak days but days like these make me feel that I can probably work here forever. I do not harbour high ambition, I just need a job that I am comfortable with,gives me a decent pay,managable authority & role and good colleagues (even it could just be at the surface.)

Valentine's Day.
I didn't intend to meet Jason initially. Didn't feel the mood, didn't feel the need.
But still we met for a simple dinner at the cafe located at Serangoon Central. (Honestly a very cool idea for a surviving cafe at a neighbourhood area.)

Ok, I told everyone that I didn't have any present for him but I made this very much earlier when the skies were still bright & sunny for me.
I thought of giving it when I feel like it but again it would defeat that 'Happy Valentine Day's purpose.
Nonetheless the V day dinner was simply spent & I kinda miss Jason, just that there are still some emotional turmoils inside my heart that I need time, space & enough coldness, disappointment to pacify them.

I have decided.
I will buy a professional camera by this year. Could be mid of 08 or end of it.
While I am still keen in photography, my right hand finally decides to do me some justice.
I can't decide the shaded one or the non shaded one looks better.



The sad thing about all these doodles is that they ARE actually PHOTOS I saw on yahoo.
When it comes to my hand, they kinda comic-fied.
Esp that gal holding the handphone one,it was actually a very nice photo.

Oh well, I never say I am good in drawing anyway.


I don't wanna wait for you anymore.
I can't decide it's you or him that lingers in my heart.
I guess it's him.
You are merely a shadow that's tracing around whom I adore & imagined to be.
Though you never see me who I want you to see as well.
2 different persons.
Same ending still.

Lately...been doodling alot. Like what's left beneath, I'm gonna throw them all out.